Okay, now that I got your attention let me explain thoroughly what the word “fetish” is all about. Commonly the word fetish is only known for it’s sexual nature.
According to Merriam Webster the word fetish means :an object of irrational reverence or obsessive devotion :prepossession. :an object or bodily part whose real or fantasied presence is psychologically necessary for sexual gratification and that is an object of fixation to the extent that it may interfere with complete sexual expression.
I have this fetish or obsession rather to write again.This may sounds weird but then I have an intense writer’s block for weeks and I don’t know what to do about it. I would do crazy things to get rid of it like chanting words out loud like a crazy person or dance around like having a ritual or stay up late and stare at the moon. Sometimes I feel like swallowing the paper in all of it’s blank state then spit it out with all of my ideas and words written on it. (Gross I know) Literally my words sounds better coming from my mouth than my hands kind of thing. Knowing myself whenever I have a writer’s block it is an excruciatingly dreadful and somehow a painful process that every writer goes through. I listen to music, watch movies, read books or simply travel My fantasies running wild with all the poems and all the stories that I can write. I grew restless yet determined to write again but then again it”s all in my head. I simply couldn’t put it to pen and paper.
Just like the lyrics in the song of Selena Gomez titled Fetish
You got a fetish for my love
I push you out and you come right back
This is exactly how I describe writer’s block is to my passion in writing. There’s no exact cure to writer’s block but then if I will continue to write despite of the difficulty surely there will be progress. Instead of being depressed about the matter I will use the setback as a break and a source of inspiration, like writing the problem itself. Sometimes the muse of a writer doesn’t appear because the writer have to find it’s own inspiration.
According to the writer Louis L’amour ” Start writing, no matter what. The water does not flow until the faucet is turned on.”
Therefore I will find my muse or I will be the muse itself to be able to write again.
Ironically writing this blog post shows that I’am slowly winning my battle against my writer’ s block which is such a sweet sweet victory!